weekend weigh-in

25 Feb

hey guys.. i’m feeling like crap tonight! whatever i have likes to come on full force when the sun goes down. i just loaded up on some alka-seltzer, so hopefully i can kick it before it gets too much worse..


i’ll do a little recap since i was absent friday..

i weighed in friday morning and the scale read 261! i lost 5 lbs in a little over 5 days!! i’m happy with that! then, from there, the day got crazy!

i got to work at 7:30 and was swamped as soon as i got there. between meetings and trying to get mid-year spreadsheets and recons to the auditors, i barely had time to think. 2:15 hit and i hadn’t even had breakfast yet! (since i changed my eating, i found i do 10x better with a filling breakfast, so at this point, i was ravenous!) i went down the road to jimmy johns and got a turkey sandwich with sprouts, tomatoes, cucumbers, lettuce and avocado on whole wheat. it was sooooo good, def not something i would normally have, but i was starving and i knew my grapefruit and protein shake would not hold me over.


i ended up working 2 hours later than expected and then went out to dinner, where i had a broiled crab cake with a few sweet potato fries. best. crab cake. ever. there wasn’t anyyyy filler! it was straight crab meat and herbs. so good.

i did miss my workout because i overslept friday morning and then didn’t feel like it at 10:30 last night and planned to do it this morning.

well.. this morning i felt like crap. so that didn’t happen. both workouts will be complete by the end of sunday! (pure cardio and plyometrics)

we headed to ikea today and got some really great things! some pillows, a rug (for $20!!!!!), 2 chandeliers, a kitchen table, and a kitchen hutch (not really sure how to explain it!) all for a great price! however, we were packed like pickles on the way home!


i wish i could find the products on the website to show you, but you’ll just have to wait until we move in ūüėČ

i will show you a pic of the house.. it’s a modular and we are buying almost 4 acres of land to put it on. i can’t wait for the dogs to have plenty of room to play!


now i’m relaxing by the fire, hoping this nightly sickness will go away.. my whole body is aching right now ūüė¶

Q: how do you feel about ikea furniture? a great deal or too much of a pain to deal with?



23 Feb

guess what?! it’s almost the weekend! yay! i’m¬†excited because we’re making a trip up to ikea¬†+ i get to see my mom, hopefully!

yesterday was a pretty heavy post, but i’m¬†feeling a lot better today, other than the fact that i cannot walk down stairs without looking like a complete idiot..

i have DOMS like no other right now.. they¬†always say the third day after an intense workout is rough and they are right. those ‘they’ people know their stuff, whoever they are!

before i¬†get into today.. i¬†want to discuss the rest of my eats yesterday. my lunch and afternoon snack stayed the same ( i¬†also got in over 1.5 gallons of water), but we ended up going out to mexican for dinner with barbara’s family so we could see all the babies. i¬†went into it thinking i was going to get a salad with grilled chicken on top and refrain from ANY chips and guac. chips with a mixture of the ‘white sauce’ and salsa are my favorite part about mexican restaurants, so i¬†knew i was in for a challenge.

as we pulled up, i¬†decided that i¬†was going to make this my free meal for the week.¬† i¬†didn’t want to set myself up for failure. before, when i¬†was doing BFL, i¬†would have a free day where all the rules were thrown out the window. i¬†loved that because i¬†never felt deprived.. if i¬†wanted something bad enough, i¬†would just wait until my designated free day and indulge.¬† this go ’round ( i’m¬†still following the 40/40/20 BFL¬†eating), i¬†have decided to cut back to only one free ‘meal’ once a week. i¬†feel like i was indulging too much and only hurting myself in the long run.

so yeah, i¬†had chips, white sauce + salsa, fresh guac¬†(hold the cilantro.. YUCK!)¬†and a chicken taco salad. i¬†def didn’t eat the whole thing, but i¬†did have some of that delicious shell.. mmm! gosh, i love mexican food!

so, nothing terrible, but i am keeping myself accountable here and need to make these choices known.

today, i’ve had a post workout protein/recovery creamsicle¬†and i just finished my new obsession favorite snack: greek yogurt + banana + a container sprinkle of cinnamon + packet of stevia. i¬†really wish i¬†didn’t have to use the stevia, but greek yogurt alone hits me the wrong way, so i¬†need something to offset that tartness. the rest of my meals will be chicken + pasta + veggies, then i¬†have chicken¬†marinating¬†with some sweet potatoes and veggies for dinner

back to my workout this morning.. it¬†was insanity: cardio recovery. don’t let the ‘recovery’¬†fool you into thinking it’s a piece of cake. i¬†can feel soreness in my abs more from today than i¬†have the other two workouts. i¬†will tell you, i love a good case of DOMS, but this is crazy. i will be purchasing a foam roller this afternoon!

that’s all for now! i’m¬†feeling good about starting this time.. let’s hope the motivation keeps rolling! i have a new product call ZRII coming in the mail that i cannot wait to try!

Q1: this question is for anyone who has had a wordpress blog before (if there are any of you reading this) how do i get a picture on the right side of my screen? i can’t figure it out!!

Q2: are there any meals/restaurants where you just know that you’re going to indulge, whether you try to or not?

rambles and a recipe

22 Feb

warning: a lot of venting is about to take place, so if you’re not in the mood today, please skip to the bottom of the page or comeback next time.

so my day started out really great; i dragged myself out of bed got up, took some cardio cuts and popped in insanity: cardio power & resistance. i got in a great burn.. looked down at my HRM and realized.. i forgot to turn in on! oh well, no big deal. i know i got a great burn in.

afer cool down, i made a orange creamsicle recovery/protein smoothie (recipe below), and then got ready for work.

on my way to work i¬†decided to call my dad (after i¬†talked to my mom) even though i had a gut feeling it wasn’t the best idea.

*background info: i¬†am currently working as a General Ledger Account for an independent state agency making pretty good money compared to most of my peers. my dad, a very conservative man, thinks that me working at the state is only doing one thing: wasting his tax money. he thinks i¬†have wasted my undergrad and grad degrees on something that i¬†could do easily without either (which is def not the case at all). i¬†chose this position because it would be possible to study (wait, i’m suppose to be studying?!) and work without being overwhelmed; many of my classmates got into ‘big 4’ accounting firms and havent gotten off work before 11 p.m. since december. for now, that’s not something i want. no, i don’t want to work at this company forever, but for now, i’m happy, and that should be all that matters.

since i have accepted this job, which started out as an internship, my dad has had a rollercoaster of opinions, which he is more than happy to express to me. when i started, he was happy; happy i found a job that started within a week of me graduating. assured me, this would be the experience i needed with not so much work that CPA studying would be overwhelming.. that was the first week..

from there he did a complete 180 on me. he went from supportive to completely opposing everything about what i was doing. i was wasting my time, i was wasting his money that he paid for my education, i was wasting his tax money (because i would for a government agency).

every single time i went home i was bombarded with all this negativity.. it started with me going home bawling after spending the day at home for thanksgiving. then, at christmas, trying to embarrass me in front of all my close relatives.

since christmas, i¬†have no been home. i hadn’t even talked to my dad, which is a shame. i love my dad with all my heart¬†he’s done a lot for me and i¬†have so much respect for him, but i¬†can’t keep taking this negativity¬†from him. it’s bring me down and i¬†don’t know what to do. i’ve¬†let my mom know how i feel and she agrees what he is doing is wrong, but there’s nothing she can do about it.

hes also, always, been critical about my weight, and that’s one reason i’ve¬†always been so self-conscious about my appearance¬†with it comes to weight. i¬†sometimes make myself sick thinking about what he might say when i’ve¬†come home and gained 10 lbs since the last time i¬†was home, because i know he will most definitely let me know.*

shew, sorry for such a long background, but for you to understand why this phone call made me so upset this morning, you needed to know.

i¬†called him up just to say hi, which he always assumes i need something. we talked for a few minutes, about his company (he owns a landscaping company), about his health (since he hasn’t been in the best health lately), and the last thing he said was “have you found a real job yet” something struck me and tears started rolling down my face. as calmly as i¬†could, i¬†let him know i¬†was pulling up to work ( i¬†wasn’t even close) and that i¬†had to go. that was the end of it. i¬†called barbara and vented and she reassured me, what i was doing was the right thing, but there’s still a piece of me, this morning, that is so upset.

it shouldn’t be like this. why can’t he just be proud of where i¬†have gotten? i was the first of my family to graduate from college and the first of extended family to get a master’s degree. that means nothing to him.

it’s situations like these that make me want to put myself into a carb coma.. bread, donuts, cake, cookies.. anything would make me feel better than i¬†feel right now. i¬†know that’s not the answer; i¬†need to make sure i’m keeping track of this as one of my triggers that tends to break my healthy lifestyle commitment.

i’ll¬†end this conversation there. sorry for all the personal information and heaviness, but it’s my blog and i¬†can choose what i want to write about, right?

so.. on a lighter note¬†(if you made it through all of that), i¬†concocted a delicious¬†smoothie that i¬†would like to share with you. i¬†can’t say i¬†was ever a fan of creamsicles during my childhood, but this doesn’t taste half bad!

orange creamsicle recovery/protein smoothie



  • 1 scoop of EAS muscle armor (orange flavor)
  • 1 scoop of protein powder (i¬†used MRM rich vanilla)
  • .5 of a frozen banana
  • .5 C of unsweetened almond/coconut milk mixture
  • 1/4 t xanthan gum (optional)
  • 1/4 t guar gum (optional)
  • TONS of ice


combine all ingredients into a blender and blend until smooth and enjoy!


for the rest of my meals¬†today, i will be having: leftover pasta and chicken, 6 oz of dannon¬†greek yogurt + banana + cinnamon, chicken + rice + veggies for dinner, and if i’m¬†still hungry at the end of the day maybe a protein cake.. i’ve been craving¬†one lately! i’ve¬†also already downed 2 – 32 oz nalgenes, so i’m¬†sure i¬†will be getting in over a gallon of water today (which is something else i want to make a habit of)

hope everyone has a great day.

no questions today.. too mentally drained ūüė¶

two post tuesday

21 Feb

hey guys i’m back already! two posts, one day!

i just wanted to do a quick update on where i’m starting. i’m re-doing everything, i blew body-for-LIFE during december and haven’t been able to get back on track, completely, since.

today, my eating was on point, except for lunch. we had a potluck, so im not sure what the stats were on the food i ate, but i kept it to options i knew wouldn’t hurt me.. salad, chicken, and some rice. i did have a spoonful of shepards pie and 1 tortellini.

other meals included protein oats, 1/2 banana pre-workout, chili, and now i have a small bowl of greek yogurt + pb + 1/2 banana + chia seeds in front of me.

my workout was insanity: plyometric cardio circuit followed by a 3 mile walk with the dogs! (im beat!!) during insanity alone, i burned 479 calories. highest HR 183.

okay.. so my start weight is 266 ūüė¶

i will be doing weekly weigh-ins. i, also, want measure my stomach, arms, thighs and track the changes there. i will also take before and after photos.. which im not too excited about.

that’s all i can think of for now. i need to stay strong and work through whatever shuts me down, i have wanted to finish insanity more than anything, since I brought it and it never happens. this WILL be the time!

happy fat tuesday!

Q: are doing anything for mardi gras?

stuffed jalapenos

21 Feb

hey guys! i have another recipe post, today!

i don’t know if i will be posting recipes all the time, or just when i really like something. i am by no means a culinary genius and i’m still learning when it comes to cooking and baking!

as you know, i am obsessed with pinterest. i am always eager to find easy, new recipes that i can incorporate into both free days and the rest of the week, when i’m eating clean. well, barbara has a board on pinterest dedicated to food i should make. i’ve tried making a few of them and most have turned out great! once thing she found, were these jalapenos poppers, which are weight watchers friendly.


i took it upon myself to tweak the recipe a bit with what i had on hand!

stuffed jalapenos (inspired by this recipe)

  • 4 T of low-fat shredded cheddar cheese
  • 4 wedges of Laughing Cow Light – Blue Cheese (any will work)
  • 2 T of non-fat greek yogurt
  • 4 jalapenos
  • 6 T of whole wheat panko breading

(the original recipe calls for dipping the jalapenos with an egg wash and then dipping into the bread crumbs. i did that the first time with egg whites and it turned out great. the second time i just sprinkled the bread crumbs on top and it worked just as good! )


  • preheat oven to 350 degrees F and coat a large baking sheet (i used a baking stone, so this wasn’t necessary)
  • in a bowl, combine cheddar cheese, LCL, and greek yogurt, set aside
  • cut peppers in half and remove seeds, then rub your eyes (i did this on accident, actually i ALWAYS do this when working with peppers, like my eyes are only itchy when i have fire fingers, or something)
  • fill peppers with cheese mixture
  • at this point, if you are using the egg wash, dip your poppers in the wash and then coat with bread crumbs and place on baking sheet
  • if you are not using the egg wash, place the poppers on your baking sheet and sprinkle bread crumbs on top
  • bake for about 30 minutes (the cheese should be bubbling and the outside should be brown)
  • serve immediately! ENJOY!



i promise i will be posting an update the start of my weight loss journey, round 3489374. i fell of the wagon completely last week, and now i’m back at square one. ūüė¶ nothing i can do about it now, except get back on track and work twice as hard. almost two months have passed and i’m nowhere near my goals i set for the new year. plus, i have a 10K i am running in on march 31st and i probably can’t run 3 minutes right now. gah!

hope everyone had a great weekend!

Q: have you ever tried to commit to something and you just kept sabotaging yourself? i, for some reason, always sabotage myself during weight loss right after 35-40 lbs lost. i don’t know why, but i really want to look into it. i KNOW i want this, so why can’t i force myself to do it?

shamrock shake

18 Feb

hey guys! i’m not going to be long because i’m watching a movie, but i hadddd to share this new creation i made tonight!

so.. it’s shamrock milkshake time at McDonald’s right now.. my all time favorite milkshake!


well since i’m trying my best to get on track, i made my own recipe!


shamrock protein shake

inspired by this smoothie

1 C of unsweetened almond milk
2/3 cup of nonfat Greek yogurt
1 scoop of vanilla protein powder
1 t of mint extract
1/4 t of xanthan gum
1/4 t of guar gum
2 packets of stevia
A few drops of green food coloring
A handful of ice cubes

combine all ingredients into a blender and blend until smoothie! ENJOY!

Q: do you have any plans tonight? me.. no! watching moneyball! mmm brad pitt!!

flashback friday::scout turns one!

17 Feb

no wordy post. scout turns one, tomorrow! it’s been quite the 11.5 months with him.. many, many, MANY sleepless nights. i still wouldn’t change anything about him. hes my child and i love him more than i ever thought i could love something!





















love you, scout! we WILL be celebrating with a cake, probably a recipe from janetha! she knows how to celebrate her children’s dog’s birthday!


hope you guys have a great weekend!

Q: do you have any plans!!?


13 Feb

hey guys! just want to share some pictures from my AMAZING ski trip to snowshoe, wv! yes, i fell.. yes, im sore.. yes, i ate tooooo much, but everything was so worth it!

the drive there:


entering west virigina



about to head down the first time!


after my first run.. lots of crying & lots of cussing!


heading out to night ski!


the view at night




all bundled up.. it was SOOOO cold


waiting for the shuttle


yepp.. that’s how cold it was!


our cabin we stayed in


the drive home.


hope you had a great weekend! i’ll be posting on my new plan later tonight/tomorrowish!

Q: how did you spend your weekend?


9 Feb

..or lack thereof.

since my post saturday morning, nothing has change. my eating habits havent gotten worse, but they aren’t better. too many carbs and not enough cardio. i’ve been terrible at taking pictures of my food and have slept through my workout alarm clock every day this morning. i feel disgusting. i don’t know what’s keeping me like this.. why can’t i snap out of it?

i had my CPA exam on monday.. it went terrible, to say the least.. i’ve now gotten the scores back from my other two and failed..both, so i have to retake them.

barbara and i, along with some college friends, are going up to snowshoe mountain, wv to ski and snowboard for the weekend and while i’m there, i really want to think about everything i’m doing and how its effecting my life. i might as well change the name of my blog, because there has been barely any studying OR sweating going on around here, recently, and it’s only stressing me out more.

i need to make a list.. of goals, deadlines, and everything that’s going on that needs to be finished and taken seriously:

  • i WANT to be in a 2 piece by summer.. and that’s not happening eating too many carbs and not enough insanity.
  • i WANT to have my CPA by the end of the year.. but that’s not happening coming home and doing everything BUT studying. (it’s bad, seriously. i’ll come home and clean the whole house or re-organize my bedroom.. anything to put off studying.)
  • i WANT to open up a savings account and put a substantial amount of my paycheck in it every 2 weeks.. but that’s not happening being scattered about my shopping and not meal planning correctly. i’m spending WAY too much money on food.. my MINT app told me so.. so bad that i don’t even want to share the number with you, because i’m embarrassed. i need to look up ways to budget while maintaining clean eating habits.

..all these wants are completely attainable.. the only one holding me back, is me.

i need to realize that these sacrifices i’m about to make will change my life for the better and will be sooo worth it in the end. i just need to stop making excuses and DO IT.

sorry for two of these posts in a row.. but i need to be honest with myself. i need to get on track and stay on track this time.. no more bs’ing .. no more excuses.

i do, however, want to share this AMAZING dish that i found off of peas & crayons .. this dish was sooooo good and soooo simple. i mixed the imitation crab with just the ‘cock’ sauce because i was afraid that mixing it with greek yogurt wouldn’t taste the same as mayo. no.. my picture isn’t as appealing as her’s, but it still tasted great!


i’m gonna go ahead and say i probably wont be back anytime soon this weekend since we will be packing/getting ready tonight and leaving bright and early tomorrow morning. i’ll take lots of pictures and post later!

hope you guys have a great weekend!

Question: has anyone else ever had this problem? you want something so bad, but you can’t convince your brain to stop the bad habits and start the new? hopefully i’m not alone here.. but maybe i am?

get my act together

4 Feb

hey guys! hope everyone had a great start to the weekend! i currently have a 50 lb basset laying on me(love snuggles!), posting from my phone..

i know i had my post about no resolutions and if i had a bad day it wasn’t gonna get me down.. and i have been eating clean.. but too much. it’s not helping my weight.. i gain weight (whether it be water weight or pounds) very easily and i am now 8 pounds away from my starting weight ūüė¶ very discouraging..

from here on out i am going to do my best to meal plan, prep, and do everything else I need to, so that i don’t overeat. i will be measuring food with the palm and fist method (because counting calories stresses me out) and selecting the right portions and options. this isn’t bringing me down, i just am realizing this is going to take a lot more than just having a can-do attitude. weight loss is HARD!


i’m going to use this blog like a lot of bloggers have in the past/still are using. i’m going to picture every bite that enters my mouth and i will make sure i take a picture of the screen of my insanity workout. knowing others will see if i’m slacking will motivate me to do it the right way. i may even take a pic of the scale once a week, just so I keep it in the back of my mind that i’m not the only one looking at the scale. yes, i’ve had some personal problems lately, but I’m not letting me get me down.

i’ll leaving you with some pictures of my baby at after he got a spa day!